So…lets start off by saying that I know life is hard. It’s hard for different people in different ways. That being said Life is AMAZING!!! Life is
what we are doing right here, right now.
It is coming up on my year of weight the Idea Protein diet
and I have lost 100lbs. This is great!! I
still would like to lose 120 more but right now I am dealing with life. Eating for me has always been a way to push
down my hurt. Whatever that hurt is/was
food would take it away. Sure it would
only take it away for a moment but that moment was bliss and let me live in my pretend
world. As of last year I stepped out of
my pretend world and have been living each day as I can. Some days I crush it. Other days it crushes me. The last 6 weeks I have been in a state of constant
anxiety. Sometimes I turned to food
other times I was able to use food as just fuel to make it thru. Right now I need to get back into the use
food as fuel mind set as I do not know what the next six weeks will bring. I have seen the Man that I Love (and who
Loves me back) struggle to live, struggle to breath, struggle to keep his
sanity and I am in awe. His strength,
his kindness, he general Nate’ness it something I strive for. He is now breathing on his own and gaining
his strength back so one day soon I hope to have him home.
Life it is AMAZING as some people do not get to hope for
having their partner home, other have a partner at home and don’t appreciate them,
and then others wish for a partner to be living again so they can touch them
once more. I know I am lucky as Nate
breaths and as long as he does there is hope and that is all I can ask for.
