I’m Happy but still scared; this is a hard emotion to always live in as I feel the Joy that Life can be but I’m also scared all the time. Sacred that I won’t be able to handle life’s big challenges when they come up. Scared that I will fail when I try because my resolve is really not there. Scared that I will not be who I think I can be.
I’ve started down a scary road because failure means death. This is hard to say but I need to say it as that is the truth. If I fail at losing weight then I will keep suffering physically and emotionally and I don’t know how much longer I could go on with the pain.
I’m Happy though as I now know today starts today and each day I will need to take it as it comes and remind myself I am worthy. Worthy of Loving myself. Worthy of the Love that others have for me. Worthy of showing myself and others that I do have what it takes and can succeed.